A Marriage- RS Thomas
We met
under a shower
of bird-notes.
Fifty years passed,
love’s moment
in a world in
servitude to time.
She was young;
I kissed with my eyes
closed and opened
them on her wrinkles.
`Come,’ said death,
choosing her as his
partner for
the last dance, and she,
who in life
had done everything
with a bird’s grace,
opened her bill now
for the shedding
of one sigh no
heavier than a feather.
Michael Rosen Meets Michael Rosen
We’re going to have an essay crisis.
We’re going to write a big one.
What a beautiful day!
We’re not scared.
Uh-oh!
An intellectual point about Hegel’s dialectical method!
A compex intellectual point about Hegel’s dialectical method!
We can’t go over it.
We can’t go under it.
We’ll have to go through it!
… Etc …
Why?

Little Haiku for you:
My Master’s Application
Why did I spend time
writing poems when I had
yet to complete it?!
…
Why why why why why?!
Argh! Why why why why why why
Why, stupid girl? WHY?!
…
The message of this poem is, “Aaaaaarrrrrggghhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!”
Remembered Poem
My blog’s been a little poem-heavy recently, but I will add one more. For some odd reason, as I walking to a class today, a poem I’d read when I was quite young came back into my mind. I haven’t read the poem in ages and am really surprised the words have stayed with me (I had to look up the end of the first verse). I remember that when I first read it, it really shocked me and made me upset, so perhaps that seared the words into my head! Anyway, it went like this:
Ellie Kilbride
On the north side of Cork city
Where I sported and played
On the banks of my own lovely Lee
Having seen the goat break loose in Grand Parade
I met a child, Eily Kilbride
Who’d never heard of marmelade,
Whose experience of breakfast
Was coldly limited,
Whose entire school day
Was a bag of crisps,
Whose parents had no work to do,
Who went, once, into the countryside,
Saw a horse with a feeding bag over its head,
And thought it was sniffing glue.
…
- Brendan Kennelly
Welcoming Winter
.
Leafy trees…
I’ve become attached to you.
.
Because everywhere I go, you sing that there is something
unmistakeably, steadfastly
beautiful.
.
“Look! Here we are!”, you sing.
.
“Here we are! Look! Look!”
Everywhere I walk.
.
So what now?
The air seethes with cold, and we wrap ourselves in wool,
and you… shed your leaves.
.
You stand tall, black,
some paces back now,
and not singing. Sometimes, casually, you see.
Golden leaves lie fallen at your feet,
quietly cantabile, weak. Their melancholy hurts.
.
You let them go. And soon they will be taken in
by that whirring machine and pressed together
and stirred into soil and suffocated into compost,
and you will remain. Tall. Black. Silent.
.
It was before winter’s onset that I realised I was too attached,
impressionable.
That it was through attitude, not verdant impressions, I could find peace.
Your singing leaves wrapped me up in myself- all impressions.
The fellow under the Bodhi tree taught me all that,
yet I’d forgotten why it was true.
And now, winter is teaching me.
.
Today, you still offer a golden wave
and a golden blanket. But I know that
this song
is a parting one.
And it’s lesson, for me, is timely.
.
Shed your leaves soon, then,
that I might welcome a season of
growth.
.
Yet (please) not too soon;
the poem is done,
but the poet hopes she isn’t, quite.
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Another draft poem. It was written in the last half an hour so no doubt it’ll get changed as time passes! Also, I don’t think winter is the only season that ‘tells it like it is’- every season is honest.
Also, I know having the music adds more than an air of pretension, but I love the music and the video. And there’s another analgy there: the tune ends.
Interestingly, though, in the age of internet and YouTube, I can revisit it again and again, across the year.
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Postscript: I think it’s a false dichotomy I draw between finding peace and happiness from internal / external sources. You need the fitting internal sentiments and approach, but they can deliver happiness through the medium of external things. I realised this sitting in the back quad this morning eating my porridge; the quad’s looking ever more wintery, but there is in fact no dearth of things to marvel and grin at; the ‘survivors’ of winter (robins, holly, squirrels for a while…) seem to particularly cheer us. Just beforehand, this morning, I’d found myself in a Equisetum swamp and “forest school” in West Oxford, feasting my eyes on a great old willow tree that had cracked and fallen, and become soggy-soft. It was bright orange, mushy, inside the dark wrinkled bark. Definitely wintery. Definitely beautiful.
“Light Rain” Lyrics
I wrote these lyrics as my bus pulled away from Mcleod Ganj at the end of the summer. I felt that the sadness of leaving was something a lot of people, especially travellers, could relate to and wanted to write something to express that, which could be sung with melancholy in bars across South Asia by men with beards and women with those baggy indian trousers. Fairly confident I didn’t manage that, “Wish You Were Here” (I heard that Floyd song SO many times that vacation!) -style. But here are the lyrics anyway, cos lyrics, poems and stories are always for sharing.
Light Rain
Light rain. Light rain.
I’m leaving in light rain.
I tried, but I couldn’t leave in the sun,
So I’m leaving today, in light rain.
.
Old friends.
I wish we were old friends.
Give us time, so we can grow bored of each other.
(Oh,) Let us grow bored!
.
I’m leaving in light rain.
Couldn’t leave in the sun.
.
Linger. Linger.
Can’t stay, so I’ll linger,
While this bus, drvies me far from my thoughts.
Some time every day, I’ll linger.
.
So I’m leaving in light rain.
Couldn’t leave in the sun.
.
Keep near. Keep near.
You say you’ll keep in touch.
Must you? Please don’t “keep in touch”.
Won’t you just keep near?
.
No, I’m leaving in light rain.
Could never leave in the sun.
Schistosomiasis / Passionate Kisses
Yuan and I have re-written the words of “Passionate Kisses” by Mary Chapin Carpenter, to make it a protest song about neglected tropical diseases. Enjoy. Words below the video.
[Verse One]
Is it to much to ask?
I want a comfortable bed, that won’t hurt my back.
Food to fill me up,
And warm clothes, and all that stuff.
[Chorus]
Shouldn’ t I have this?
Shouldn’t I have this?
Shouldn’t I have all of this, NOT,
Schistosomiasis,
Lymphatic filariasis,
Soil-transmitted helminthiasis,
From Worms.
[Verse Two]
Is it too much to demand?
I want a real big giver with an ethical plan.
Clean water to drink,
And cool quiet, and time to think.
[Chorus]
[Verse Three]
Do I want too much?
Am I going over board, to need those drugs?
Shout it out to the night:
“Give me what I deserve! Cos it’s my right!”
[Chorus]
The Wasp
The Wasp
The wasp swayed into my vicinity.
I was touched, warmed
by the insect contact.
I wanted it to stay.
One spiral. One dive.
A hidden buzzing from beneath my arm…
Then it flew on.
And everything returned to isolation.
Ithaka, by Constantine P Cavafy; The Fire Sermon (by Buddha!)
When you set out for Ithaka
ask that your way be long,
full of adventure, full of instruction.
The Laistrygonians and the Cyclops,
angry Poseidon – do not fear them:
such as these you will never find
as long as your thought is lofty, as long as a rare
emotion touch your spirit and your body.
The Laistrygonians and the Cyclops,
angry Poseidon – you will not meet them
unless you carry them in your soul,
unless your soul raise them up before you.
Ask that your way be long.
At many a Summer dawn to enter
with what gratitude, what joy -
ports seen for the first time;
to stop at Phoenician trading centres,
and to buy good merchandise,
mother of pearl and coral, amber and ebony,
and sensuous perfumes of every kind,
sensuous perfumes as lavishly as you can;
to visit many Egyptian cities,
to gather stores of knowledge from the learned.
Have Ithaka always in your mind.
Your arrival there is what you are destined for.
But don’t in the least hurry the journey.
Better it last for years,
so that when you reach the island you are old,
rich with all you have gained on the way,
not expecting Ithaka to give you wealth.
Ithaka gave you a splendid journey.
Without her you would not have set out.
She hasn’t anything else to give you.
And if you find her poor, Ithaka hasn’t deceived you.
So wise you have become, of such experience,
that already you’ll have understood what these Ithakas mean.
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Courtesy of Poetry Please, read by Roger McGough, on Radio Four last night. This really is the sanest way to look at life, if only we could all manage it! Some of of us seem to spend our journeys policing the wa, though.
That was followed by a deliciously, horribly spooky story called Lullaby by Francis Turnly. Recommended listening while you’re going to sleep, if you like a nice scare! http://www.bbc.co.uk/programmes/b00d7jh3
Anyway, Ithaka was a nice contrast to the other inspiring thing I’ve read recently, the Buddha’s “Fire Sermon”. Both deal very differently with the role of pleasures and pains in life. I think it’s best to notice and take the wisdom in each piece of advice.
The combination of the fire sermon, and realising that my energy levels were probably all over the place because of the fast-release energy snacks I kept having, have actually stopped me eating unhealthy snacks (as much), by making it easy for me to stop wanting them. Usually, the wanting has gone unabated (cos I don’t care enough about my waistline!) and with it the eating is just inevitable in my case!! But I’ve realised that things I actually value- conducive energy levles, not craving more sweet things- are precluded by eating them, and often that’s been enough to make me contentedly reach for the red bush tea/ weatabix/ satsumas instead!
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Samyutta Nikaya XXXV.28
Aditta-pariyaya Sutta
The Fire Sermon
(Translated by Bhikkhu Thanissaro)
Several months after his Awakening, the Buddha delivers this sermon to an audience of 1,000 fire-worshipping ascetics. In his characteristically brilliant teaching style, the Buddha uses a metaphor that quickly penetrates to the heart of the audience — in this case, the metaphor of fire. Upon hearing this sermon, the entire audience attains full Awakening (arahatta).
I have heard that on one occasion the Blessed One was staying in Gaya, at Gaya Head, with 1,000 monks. There he addressed the monks:
“Monks, the All is aflame. What All is aflame? The eye is aflame. Forms are aflame. Consciousness at the eye is aflame. Contact at the eye is aflame. And whatever there is that arises in dependence on contact at the eye — experienced as pleasure, pain or neither-pleasure-nor-pain — that too is aflame. Aflame with what? Aflame with the fire of passion, the fire of aversion, the fire of delusion. Aflame, I tell you, with birth, aging and death, with sorrows, lamentations, pains, distresses, and despairs.
“The ear is aflame. Sounds are aflame. Consciousness at the ear is aflame. Contact at the ear is aflame. And whatever there is that arises in dependence on contact at the ear — experienced as pleasure, pain or neither-pleasure-nor-pain — that too is aflame. Aflame with what? Aflame with the fire of passion, the fire of aversion, the fire of delusion. Aflame, I tell you, with birth, aging and death, with sorrows, lamentations, pains, distresses, and despairs.
“The nose is aflame. Aromas are aflame. Consciousness at the nose is aflame. Contact at the nose is aflame. And whatever there is that arises in dependence on contact at the nose — experienced as pleasure, pain or neither-pleasure-nor-pain — that too is aflame. Aflame with what? Aflame with the fire of passion, the fire of aversion, the fire of delusion. Aflame, I tell you, with birth, aging and death, with sorrows, lamentations, pains, distresses, and despairs.
“The tongue is aflame. Flavors are aflame. Consciousness at the tongue is aflame. Contact at the tongue is aflame. And whatever there is that arises in dependence on contact at the tongue — experienced as pleasure, pain or neither-pleasure-nor-pain — that too is aflame. Aflame with what? Aflame with the fire of passion, the fire of aversion, the fire of delusion. Aflame, I tell you, with birth, aging and death, with sorrows, lamentations, pains, distresses, and despairs.
“The body is aflame. Tactile sensations are aflame. Consciousness at the body is aflame. Contact at the body is aflame. And whatever there is that arises in dependence on contact at the body — experienced as pleasure, pain or neither-pleasure-nor-pain — that too is aflame. Aflame with what? Aflame with the fire of passion, the fire of aversion, the fire of delusion. Aflame, I tell you, with birth, aging and death, with sorrows, lamentations, pains, distresses, and despairs.
“The intellect is aflame. Ideas are aflame. Consciousness at the intellect is aflame. Contact at the intellect is aflame. And whatever there is that arises in dependence on contact at the intellect — experienced as pleasure, pain or neither-pleasure-nor-pain — that too is aflame. Aflame with what? Aflame with the fire of passion, the fire of aversion, the fire of delusion. Aflame, I say, with birth, aging and death, with sorrows, lamentations, pains, distresses, and despairs.
“Seeing thus, the instructed noble disciple grows disenchanted with the eye, disenchanted with forms, disenchanted with consciousness at the eye, disenchanted with contact at the eye. And whatever there is that arises in dependence on contact at the eye, experienced as pleasure, pain or neither-pleasure-nor-pain: With that, too, he grows disenchanted.
“He grows disenchanted with the ear, disenchanted with sounds, disenchanted with consciousness at the ear, disenchanted with contact at the ear. And whatever there is that arises in dependence on contact at the ear, experienced as pleasure, pain or neither-pleasure-nor-pain: With that, too, he grows disenchanted.
“He grows disenchanted with the nose, disenchanted with aromas, disenchanted with consciousness at the nose, disenchanted with contact at the nose. And whatever there is that arises in dependence on contact at the nose, experienced as pleasure, pain or neither-pleasure-nor-pain: With that, too, he grows disenchanted.
“He grows disenchanted with the tongue, disenchanted with flavors, disenchanted with consciousness at the tongue, disenchanted with contact at the tongue. And whatever there is that arises in dependence on contact at the tongue, experienced as pleasure, pain or neither-pleasure-nor-pain: With that, too, he grows disenchanted.
“He grows disenchanted with the body, disenchanted with tactile sensations, disenchanted with consciousness at the body, disenchanted with contact at the body. And whatever there is that arises in dependence on contact at the body, experienced as pleasure, pain or neither-pleasure-nor-pain: With that, too, he grows disenchanted.
“He grows disenchanted with the intellect, disenchanted with ideas, disenchanted with consciousness at the intellect, disenchanted with contact at the intellect. And whatever there is that arises in dependence on contact at the intellect, experienced as pleasure, pain or neither-pleasure-nor-pain: He grows disenchanted with that too.
“Disenchanted, he becomes dispassionate. Through dispassion, he is fully released. With full release, there is the knowledge, ‘Fully released.’ He discerns that ‘Birth is depleted, the holy life fulfilled, the task done. There is nothing further for this world.’ “
That is what the Blessed One said. Gratified, the monks delighted at his words. And while this explanation was being given, the hearts of the 1,000 monks, through no clinging (not being sustained), were fully released from fermentation/effluents.
A Poncho Problem Put to you in Poetry
The Poncho Problem
Beneath my poncho,
I’ve no discernible form.
So, where has it gone?
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A silly little haiku I wrote while walking to the office, feeling shy about my very warm but not-too-flattering yak hair poncho. The poncho doubles up nicely as a ‘protective outer layer’ in the evnings though (protecting one from heckles and stares)!
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